The last year. . . year and a half. . . maybe two years have been a total transitioning time period for me, and it has shown in my posting. My posting schedule can be summed up as slow and sporadic. My first instinct is to apologize for my lack of posting, but in all honesty I’m really not sorry. I needed this time. This transitional time was a combination of out of control busy with getting the ranch on the market, working full time, selling the ranch, moving from the ranch (that was an experience that I needed a vacation from in itself), and then giving ourselves a much needed extended vacation. I can’t fully explain how stressful, exhausting, maddening, and ultimately eye opening these experiences were for us. When we went on the road it was to get away and take a break, but I also had big plans to revamp all of my “heart” projects and to blog here along the way since this had taken a backseat with everything else we had going on.
To be honest, I tried, but I couldn’t get motivated. I told myself I should be working, but I wanted to relax, to sleep in, to contemplate life, to not be okay and then to just be okay, and to enjoy time. It was needed time. It was time I wish I would have taken when I was 20 instead of when I was 33, but it probably wouldn’t have had the same results then. It was time where I truly got to the heart of my. . . I don’t want to call it unhappiness. . . we’ll call it my joylessness. I realized that I have been doing the motions on idle, but was not engaged or enthralled in my life anymore.
I am a people pleaser. I’ve always been that way, and I have a love hate relationship with this part of me. What I didn’t realize is how important it is to also please myself. I needed to start over in a career that excites me, motivates me, and makes a difference in the world. I need to give myself me time, family time, and fun time. And most importantly I needed to make day to day life extraordinary. I was in a massive rut, and it was just getting deeper and deeper. I needed to drag myself out of that huge hole and start fresh.
I’ve always struggled with the purpose of this blog. I love doing it, and I still love doing home projects, but what is the greater purpose of it? In all of these epiphany’s I decided that I want this to be an inspiring space. . . both to inspire us (me and you) to try new things, but to also inspire us (me and you) to create a life we love. It’s so important to find your calling, to learn to take time for yourself, and most importantly to make your life extraordinary. I have updated (for like the 5,000th time) my about me page with what I feel like is the most authentic version. I want this place to be inspiring for you, but also for me. I want to connect with other people striving for their dreams, their joy, and a happy filled life. I feel like it sounds cheesy, but you know what sometimes cheesy is good!
Thanks for letting me feelings puke on you! I’m excited about the changes I’ve set forth in my life and blog. I’m moving forward with motivation, exhilaration, and joy. . . which is a breathtaking experience. We have officially settled into a small rental while we figure out where we want to land more permanently, and I am enjoying small rental living to its fullest! You’ve been seeing some fall decorating that I did on our very tiny front porch. More to come very soon!
Has anyone else had a time period in their life where they made huge changes? Does anyone else feel like they are in a life rut? What do you love to do that is just for you? I’d love to hear if anyone else can relate to this?
Until Next Time,